In my journey through singleness, I’ve stumbled upon a lot of broken people. Along with myself, of course. I realized that everyone has broken pieces of themselves and are just going along the path trying to find one that accepts all their broken pieces of who they are.
After a recent heartbreak, my friend shared a very powerful video from Pastor Tony Evans about being “Single and Satisfied”. I have always been a believer in God and always prayed that He would bring me someone who He meant for me.
Now I’m 31, about to be 32, and I was left wondering, when that would ever happen. I mean, if I wanted to have a family, I had to get started pretty quickly right?! Well, after listening to the sermon, I realized that I was distracted in finding a life mate, rather than focusing on my purpose here on Earth. I’ve been wasting minutes, hours, days, years…..on worrying when I was going to start my life….which I thought, was creating my home and family. Don’t get me wrong, I want to start that one day, but I need to stop looking left and right at who is available. Instead, I need to look up. At the one who created all of us and knows us better than we know ourselves.
When I was in my teens, I was visiting my grandmother in the hospital. I was spending the night with her because she doesn’t speak English and the nurses were checking in on her throughout the night, so I was her translator. At some point late at night, she asked me to climb into her hospital bed so she could pray for me. During her prayer, she asked God to find me someone who had as big of a heart as I did and that had as much compassion. She said, that I was such a great person and that I deserved God’s best. Since then, I wondered when that would happen. I mean out of all the great people out there, I was bound to find one right? What I didn’t understand, was that it wasn’t my time yet. I do still have hope for love, but I know now that it won’t happen on my terms or according to my time. I have to learn to trust the process that God has for us. This doesn’t mean that I’m giving up, or think that I am a failure, but rather not trying to control what is out of my control.
So for my single friends, who are worried that they’ll never find someone or that they’re getting older….don’t fret over what you can’t control. You keep doing you and focus on your purpose.
I write this to work through my recent heartbreak. So stay tuned for more on my journey to finding my purpose.
xo-
EG
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